Music Echos

Isn't it funny how music can echo your emotions. Reflect how you feel. Put your feelings into words.

I put my iPod on shuffle today. And every sone that played reflected how I was feeling today. My mood of being confused but hopeful. Sad but strong. Upset but determined. And just handling my life with grace and dignity.

Music expressing my feeling and mood is something magical.

To A.S.I. - This one is for you

I am a fighter. I fight for what I want. I fight for what I need. I fight for what's mine. And I don't handle rejection well. I don't like being told no.

Maybe since I am a fighter that's the reason I haven't given up. Even though I said I was done, I wasn't ready to give up. I don't like to quit. I had to say I was done to give my heart some peace.

But I wasn't ready to give up because of several reasons. I wasn't ready to give up because I saw something in your eyes. I wasn't ready to give up just yet because I felt something in your touch. I wasn't ready to give up because I felt something in my heart and soul for you. I wasn't ready to give up because I liked the feeling of butterflies in my stomach everytime I thought of your sweet face.

I saw something in you and I felt something for you. I was scared. I know what I felt was real. I'm not scared of that feeling anymore. For that, I thank you.

And again, thank you for letting me know that I can open my heart. Thank you for letting me know I can survive yet another heartache.

There's just something about you that I believed in. Something that got me. Hook. Line. and Sinker. You reeled me in. I liked it. And I believed what you said.

I believed you the other day when you said that you were sorry and that we would talk. I believed it. You reeled me back in. And I held tightly onto that string again. But I have to let go again because my heart can't handle the pain.

But I am still not ready to let go. I know I need to let go. But I don't want to. You got to me and in a good way too.

I don't know if this is my final good-bye. Maybe it should be. But I don't want it to be good-bye.

Thinking of you!

p.s. I want to be there for you even if I have to settlle for reamining your friend.

think about this one...

Fall in love or fall in hate.
Get inspired or be depressed.
Ace a test or flunk a class.
Makes babies or make art.
Speak the truth or lie and cheat.
Dance on tables or sit in the corner.
Life is divine chaos. Embrace it.
Forgive yourself. Breathe.
And enjoy the ride…
- Solbeam


It's all about a choice. You make the final decision in what you do. The experiences around you help influence your choice. But the choice is yours. It's all on you.