I forgive you...

I forgive you…

I know that I must forgive you. I know that I must forgive you for everything you did. Until I forgive you, you have a hold on my heart. I can’t let anyone else in until I forgive you. So… I forgive you.

I’m not doing this for you. I am doing this for me. I need this. I have to have this. I need to let you go. Completely let you go.

I forgive you for breaking my heart.
I forgive you for all the empty promises.
I forgive you for all the promises that you broke too.
I forgive you for betraying me.
I forgive you…

I forgive you for not trusting me with your whole heart when I trusted you with my whole heart.
I forgive you for not loving me with your entire soul when I loved you with my entire soul.
I forgive you…

I forgive you for falling out of love with me.
I forgive you for canceling our future. Even though I left, you canceled our future a long time ago.
I forgive you for making me angry.
I forgive you for making me bitter.
I forgive you…

So here it is… I forgive you! I’m doing this for my happiness not yours. I’m letting you go. Completely letting you go.

I’m saying good-bye. Good-bye to all the memories. I can’t even hold onto the good memories. I’m saying good-bye to you. Again, this is not for you. This is for me!!

I will never forget what you did. But I forgive you for what you did.

But I have learned so much from you. And for that I thank you. I know that I am so much better than I ever have been. I know that I am worth it. I know that I am a better person now. I found strength, courage, love, passion, faith, grace, and dignity. I found all of these things even though you didn’t show them to me.

I know that I will find what I need. I am still cautious. I’m still learning. I have a wall up. I am guarded. I’ve built a wall not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it. But with time and patience, I will find what I need. I will find that love. I’m not giving up on it yet.

I forgive you. I let you go. I say good-bye.

I can now completely, fully move on. I can move forward.

No Shortcuts

“There are no shortcuts to anyplace worth going.” – Beverly Sill

I love when I am able to find a quote that hits the heart. A quote that makes you think. A quote that may make you reflect. A quote that can make you feel. A quote that may touch your soul. A quote that will speak to you.

I have found another quote that speaks to me. I like this one because you can take in many ways. I like a quote like that. Think about this quote again… “There are no shortcuts to anyplace worth going.”

If it is worth it there are no shortcuts.

It can simply mean a destination of a place. If your trip is worth it you don’t want to short change yourself on seeing or experiencing something.

It can be a transition. Personal transition. Financial transition. Professional transition. If it is worth it you don’t want a short cut.

It can be a personal journey. Personal grow. Finding out who you are. Your journey to the new place in your life, the new you is worth going and no shortcuts are needed.

You have to go through it to feel it. You need to feel and see and experience the entire thing. You learn to appreciate what you are going through. You appreciate yourself. You appreciate your courage and your strength. You appreciate the people that surrounded you in your time. You appreciate your surroundings. You appreciate what the future may hold for you.