Chin up... Boobs out! Up and Over! Bless it and Let it go!

This is what I am trying to do! Trying with everything I have. I'm going to have to find away yet again. I sometimes think that I am too forgiving. I haven't forgiven this most recent act of his.

I have been told...
I'm resilient. I'm strong. I'm fabulous and that I have courage, strength, and dignity. I've been told that I'm inspiring and that I am respected. I've been told that my words bring hope or a lesson. I've been thanked for sharing my thoughts, my emotions.

These things make me happy. I am awed that someone would think of me in this way. I just write what I feel. I share my words, thoughts, and emotions.

I never thought that my struggles, my heartache, my life lessons, could affect someone else. Again, I share my words but I am grateful to know that I am helping in some small way.

"Those who do not remember the past are codemned to repeat it." - George Santayana

I believe in the above quote. I will always remember my past. Not remembering to hold a grudge, but remembering how to let go. Remembering the past for the life lessons, not having regrets. Remembering the past so time can heal and I can be grateful when I get swept off my feet.

"I am strong because I am weak. I am beautiful because I know my flaws. I am a lover because I am a fighter. I'm fearless because I've been afraid. I am wise becase I have been foolish. And I can laugh because I've known sadness." - Unknown.

This is another quote that I found that I believe whole heartedly in. I'm strong because of what I have live through. Everything that I have lived through. I've been through more than you think I have. I know that I am a beautiful person because I have excepted myself the way that I am. I am a fighter. I fight for what I want and what I love. I've been scared but lived through it. My foolish ways have lead to the wisdon I have gained. And I have had my fair share of sadness. I have grieved and grown.

I am just trying to the kind of woman that I would want my daughter to be. I am taking more control. And as Audra told me... "Line 'em up sister. Make 'em work for you." So that's what I'm going to do. Not sure exactly what it is yet. Still lining things out. Still figuring things out. And that includes a lot... My life. My work. My education. The newest D.G. mess. But it will all work out. What is meant to be will be. I am a believer in fate. I believe that everything happens for a reason. A reason for everything... There's a reason for it all. Even the simple things. That's what I believe. Now I'm ready for things to work for me instead of against me. But I'm sure there was a reason even if I can't figure it out.