I forgive you...

I forgive you…

I know that I must forgive you. I know that I must forgive you for everything you did. Until I forgive you, you have a hold on my heart. I can’t let anyone else in until I forgive you. So… I forgive you.

I’m not doing this for you. I am doing this for me. I need this. I have to have this. I need to let you go. Completely let you go.

I forgive you for breaking my heart.
I forgive you for all the empty promises.
I forgive you for all the promises that you broke too.
I forgive you for betraying me.
I forgive you…

I forgive you for not trusting me with your whole heart when I trusted you with my whole heart.
I forgive you for not loving me with your entire soul when I loved you with my entire soul.
I forgive you…

I forgive you for falling out of love with me.
I forgive you for canceling our future. Even though I left, you canceled our future a long time ago.
I forgive you for making me angry.
I forgive you for making me bitter.
I forgive you…

So here it is… I forgive you! I’m doing this for my happiness not yours. I’m letting you go. Completely letting you go.

I’m saying good-bye. Good-bye to all the memories. I can’t even hold onto the good memories. I’m saying good-bye to you. Again, this is not for you. This is for me!!

I will never forget what you did. But I forgive you for what you did.

But I have learned so much from you. And for that I thank you. I know that I am so much better than I ever have been. I know that I am worth it. I know that I am a better person now. I found strength, courage, love, passion, faith, grace, and dignity. I found all of these things even though you didn’t show them to me.

I know that I will find what I need. I am still cautious. I’m still learning. I have a wall up. I am guarded. I’ve built a wall not to block anyone out, but to see who loves me enough to climb over it. But with time and patience, I will find what I need. I will find that love. I’m not giving up on it yet.

I forgive you. I let you go. I say good-bye.

I can now completely, fully move on. I can move forward.