The One My Heart Loves

I’d given up on love. I thought I would never find the one that my heart loves.

With Valentine’s Day approaching, I thought I would write about the one that my heart loves.

I write my feelings. I use my words. I have written about losing love, moving on, having fun, and living. But I have not really written about love. I have wrote how I have learned to love myself but not the one my heart loves because until now I had not found that person. Now that I have, here is our story.

Tony and I tried dating once. Last year. It lasted a few months. We had fun. But for one reason and another it ended. I was heart broken. But I lived through another heartache.

Then during the Summer ’09, we reconnected. We talked out our issues and problems. We talked about our heartaches and what we wanted to make us happy. At first we decided to take things low and slow. But there was something about him. A look he gave me. A smile on his face. A wink. A nod. I melted. The feelings that I had buried for him came back. Full force.

I tried fighting it because there was a person in my life that would not understand. She was there for me when he made me cry the first time and she would not tolerate him doing it again. I had to find the right time to tell her. It was hard for both Tony and I, trying to hide a secret. Caused problems for us and we tried to end things before we got started. But there was something there between us and we did not want to lose it again. So I mustered the guts and courage and I spilled my secret. She was upset. But she was willing to try and forgive. She did it for me. She did it for our friendship.

So that is where, Tony and I started again… We started our story over. And there was something different about us this time. And everyone saw it. But I was scared. I wanted to jump head first into the love that I felt but I was guarded. Guarded because of my past and our past. But I decided to just go with my heart. My heart had not let me down yet.

Now after 7 months we are going stronger then ever. There is something in his eyes when he looks at me. I feel like he is looking at my soul. There is something special in his touch. There is a love and trust in his hands and arms. Tony is my love. He is the one that my heart loves. I love him like I have never loved before. There is a passion, trust, respect, and appreciation like I have never experienced before. He makes me smile and laugh. He makes my heart happy! He truly is the one my heart loves!

My friends tell me that we complement each other. That we are truly each others better half. People say that there is a way that we look at each other and you can see the love. I know that I feel the love when he looks at me. That there is something special in a wink between us. Something when we hold each others hands. I feel the love and people can see the love. That is something special.

We have our arguments. We have our tiffs. But there is no one else that I would rather fight with. We are planning on a future. A long future with ups and downs. Highs and lows. Good days and bad. We will weather the storm together. He will be there for me and I will be there for him. Together, we can conquer anything. We want it all. Together. He is my love. He is the one my heart loves. There is something special about our love.